St[E]LLa,,

2012-02-22T14:23:00.001+08:00

The one thing I've learned from all the trials I've been tested with,
is to keep on believing, keep on having faith in God.
Sounds cliche, but it is something that have kept me going all these while :).
Something that I can never explain, how much I love God :')

2012-02-20T11:33:00.002+08:00

All the things I thought were easy just got harder and harder each day .

As I mentioned on the previous post that I'm going for braces soon.
So recently I went for a mini surgery to get my tooth removed inside my gums.
Think its the first time I was being put to sleep.
Kinda cool experience I guess.
Gonna go for check up next Tuesday then extraction next ! :)

Really wanna thank those who have been by my side all this while .
<333

2012-02-16T22:27:00.001+08:00

Fulfilled my building fund earlier than expected !
And I must say that God really holds His promises for me.

After I pledged my amount, mum actually said that I need to go do braces instead of me always bugging her and she didn't agree to it.
It was something I really wanted all this while.
Really thank God for fulfilling His promises for me.
I know and I know that the best are yet to come :)

Hopeless.

2012-02-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

Its actually a miracle that we managed to get through this.
By God's grace, I would say.
But because you've got through it without any thing, you don't know how bad this situation can get.
Up till this point, the only thing you know how to do is to push blames when you are the reason behind this.
Am really tired, mum is tired, brother is tired, everyone is.
Because we all are trying, so hard but you are not putting in any effort.
What else can we do?
What else do you expect us to do?
I don't wanna do anything else, anymore because things will just get worst one day.
As you age, the lesser things you can do, the weaker your body will get.
What are we supposed to do then ?

Really really wanna tell you how I feel.
In fact, I've told you so many times , and I ended up breaking my own heart and you still dont understand a single thing.
So what else, can I do ?

2012-01-29T16:39:00.002+08:00

Its true that people come and go.
But its up to you to choose who to stay and who not to.

I am glad to have found the greatest, best friend ever in my life.
Because I don't need people to stick with me always, but people who will be there, who genuinely cares, who accepts me for who I am.
And you always did :)

2012-01-17T13:39:00.003+08:00

Even the most popular person would feel lonely sometimes.

I don't like the feeling of being lonely; nobody does.
But I enjoy the time when I'm able to be alone.
Because its the only time I get to clear out my thoughts,
to think about my life.

2012-01-04T00:04:00.001+08:00

2012 started off well.
Although it doesn't feel like its 2012.

Maybe I should come up with new year resolutions and see what would happen next year.
Quite cool hur.

So my no. 1 resolution would probably be ..
More patience.

2. Bigger heart to accept everyone .

3. Think before I do anything.

So on and on.
Actually most of it would be molding my character, not to perfect, but to someone I would like to be with.

New year New start

2012-01-01T23:41:00.001+08:00

Wow. First day of 2012.

Year 2011 wasn't the best, but it was a year that all the missing pieces were put back together.

Although there are still sone parts missing, but I'm pretty sure it'd be fine this year because the best Is yet to come.

Looking forward to all the great things thats gonna happen.

Dont think my life was a bed of roses,Because I've been through so much that brought me so far.

" You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope.With less of you, there is more of God and His rule"

Believing that miracles are gonna happen this year.

2011-12-26T20:40:00.001+08:00

开始得快，结束也快。What upset me the most is, it doesn't matter anymore.Just how much do I mean actually.Nothing. Haha.

Faith.

2011-12-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Have gone through a lot to see what's happening next.
But never will I understand how it actually works, how it always ends up the same.
What I'm thankful for is, I was cautious enough not to make the same mistake again (:

Always believed in my heart that, whatever happens for a reason.
And God has our future planned properly.
So I never over react with what's taking place or things that have happened.
This is how faith works ;)

A day to remember

2011-12-25T01:42:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.

Was looking through all the different tweets about how did they spend their Christmas last year.
So I looked through all my files to find if I've done something meaningful, too.
Was kinda surprised when my camera doesn't have anything near Christmas, which means I did nothing memorable on that day.
Well, but I did this year.
First attempt on busing for Children's church, was kinda tight at first cause I was afraid I can't open up to the kids.
But things went really well, the kids were fine, although some were out of control, but our group was considered the most obedient one.
Looking forward to the next time serving !

Went for Christmas service today, was really happy for no particular reason.
Maybe because its a joyous occasion.
Gave and received presents.
Took pictures, talked, laughed, played, had fun .
Drama was really awesome, too !
So that's all.
Looking forward to tomorrow.
Maybe I should go get something for my daddy.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY <3

2011-12-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

Cool ?!
Made a trip down to Peranakan Museum after watching Alvin and the Chipmunks.

2011-12-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

So it's okay for you to forget about me and not okay for me when I didn't set you as a priority ?
Why would I when you don't even appreciate in the first place.

You always say I would understand next time.
But I'm gonna disagree because I wouldn't upset them like how you did, all the time.

2011-12-18T17:33:00.001+08:00

Kinda hate it when I procastinate.
Hate it when I always back out.
Hate it when I never think before doing some things.
Hate to regret the things I've done.
Hate to regret not doing it.

2011-12-04T22:29:00.001+08:00

At the end of the day, it is still my own stage that I can't get over.

2011-11-29T15:56:00.001+08:00

Never thought you would say this kind of thing.
If I'm really so worthless in your eyes, then don't ever act nice in front of me.

It seems like whatever things I do cannot be compared to his.
How many times he has broke your heart, cannot be compared to how many times I've tried to make you happy, tried to make you proud.
But my place in your heart never seem to change because he's always your baby, when I'm just a worthless shit.

2011-11-20T00:08:00.000+08:00

Don't wanna try.
Don't wanna risk.
Don't wanna get hurt.
Don't wanna hurt people.

I don't know when I'm gonna get out from this.
Because it feels like I'm not gonna make it.

2011-11-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

This life I live, it may not be the most perfect one, but I am blessed.
Blessed with the nicest friends around me.
I don't know what I've done to deserve them, but they shower their love for me nonetheless.
Am really very very thankful .

Say I'm easily contented or what, but these are the little things that puts a smile on my face, that brightens up my day :)

2011-11-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or neither been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye

2011-11-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

One year later, things are still the same.
What's different is I've learned to be strong.
I chose to ignore, chose to shut my thoughts.
But , how long can I go ?

Break my heart for what breaks Yours.

2011-11-01T19:28:00.002+08:00

I always believed that everything happens for a reason.
Whats the problem is how long I take to realized it.

It took me long enough to understand.
Because I took such a long time to finally sit down and think through everything.

I finally did, yesterday.
I understood the reason why.
Cried like a mad person and thinking how slow I am.
Now that I know my heart was broken because I've broken Yours, the same way.
Never will I make the same mistakes again.
I'm gonna get back on track .
I will :)

Not enough

2011-10-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry if this hurts you

But I tried to keep what we had once I was wrong

You didn't listen

You didn’t hear me

All the memories that we're losing

All the time that I spent with you everyday

I think it's running down the drain

I'm feeling that we're fading

Don't make this as hard as you think you'd be

It's a lot easier than it seems

And I can feel it falling down

I can see you're starting to drown

I can see you're burning out.

So show me, how are you gonna turn it around

2011-10-30T19:19:00.000+08:00

I can almost see it, that dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying "You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking, every move I make feels lost with no direction.

But I gotta keep trying, gotta keep my head held high
Because there's always gonna be another mountain, and I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be a uphill battle, sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

The struggles I'm facing, the chances I'm taking might knock me down.
But no, I'm not breaking
And I, I got to be strong

2011-10-25T19:07:00.000+08:00

" One day she won't bother reading it "

I still do . Everyday .
But you don't bother to update anymore.

2011-10-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream, of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems.
No one ever wants or bothers to explain of the heartache life can bring and what it means.
In a world where innocence is quickly claimed, it's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.

I still need you here like how I used to.

2011-10-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

Don't ask me what am I doing here. Hahahaha .
A little break from all the knowledge.

Haven't been heading to school in the morning for quite some time already !
I really loved the feeling when I wake up and there's awesome breakfast instead of being in school waiting for recess time.
Don't get me wrong, I preferred studying at home, more productive too.
So I'm not wasting my time.

Well, my main point being here is,
I was having breakfast with mum as usual today.
We got to have a chat with this bak chor mee shop we always eat in the past until they closed the shop for quite some time.
The reason was both husband and wife got admitted to hospital due to Diabetes.
Quite sad to hear, but what upsets me most is their kids didn't take it as a matter.
F.Y.I they are much older than me.
The mum told us that when they were admitted, the son didn't even bother opening the shop and requested to close it down 'cause its tiring .
But he neglected the thought that how are they gonna foot the heavy medical bills.
It's not cheap for one night there, moreover the dad is going to have some big surgery.

I pitied them for having such children.
But when we were about to leave, the mum was drinking some soft drink.
When she just got discharged because of her illness; Diabetes.
Makes me take back my pity.
I mean, you see how your husband is suffering from all the infections and you are aware how serious it is.
But you're still not cautious of your health when you're having the same illness.

I don't know about you, but it pains me to see people not treasuring the one and only life they have :(

2011-10-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

Everyone have been so sweet to me recently !

I would love to list all of them down, but its a lot.
Some are just little stuff.

Ahh okay since I'm free I shall just say .

1.Was in school one day and I sneezed a few times, Justin turned behind and ask if I need tissues !
I mean its really normal to sneeze, it'd be abnormal if you offer anyone who sneeze right .

2. I asked Mr Tay if he owns a yearly TYS because Popular would be oos by now.
He say he don't and he would buy it for me.
He's super nice because he went to get it after school that very same day !
Sweet right :)

3. My partner was absent that day so I was alone for Bio lesson and Ame actually came back to look for me when I was still in class talking to Mr Tay.

4. I have got really nice teachers who are willing to sacrifice their time for me !

Really am touched by all the love .
* Flying kisses

On the other hand. I miss my leeniez babeyy :):)

2011-10-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

People always say family will be the one whos gonna be there during your toughest moment.
I used to disagree this sentence when i was younger.
But as I grew older, I finally understood the true meaning of this sentence.

During this crucial period, i experienced the love and support from them.
Something I've never experience before.
Even i dont show I'm stress and anxious.
But they know how I'm feeling and give me support nonetheless.

Mum actually spent 180$ on some herb to improve my health.
And once when I wanted to get a new moisterizer because my is used up.
She wanted me to get a better brand becaise of my pimples when normally she'd ask me to pay on my own.
But she actually paid for me without saying anything.
Although i still let her cut my allowance because its really overcost.

Really thank God for sucha family, not forgetting my friends.
Truely am blessed :)

2011-10-01T10:24:00.002+08:00

Have you ever put yourself in my shoes ?
Have you ever look out for me like how i always do.
Have you ever put aside what you are doing and really listen to me?
Have you ever wonder hows my life and what I'm going through?

Back then, i used to be your priority.
But now? I merely a friend whom you would pay attention to.

All this while I've been keeping quiet because i know you were happy.
So before you put the blame on me, think first.

" Leave them behind its only life "
I've tried my best but you didnt appreciate. So I'm gonna leave now.

2011-09-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

Just read a magazine, and I guess I know why are my pimples popping like crazy.

Forehead ( Middle) : Too many irregular meals, late dinners and junk food.
( Upper) : If you sweat or apply hairstyling products (especially to your fringe)Your skin might react with zits. If you dont drink enough water, pimples will often form here.

T-zone : If you are going through puberty, a breakout will normally appear here due to overactive sebum glands.

Corner of mouth: Zits here reflect hormonal changes that happen during menstruation due to an increase in sebum production.

Chin: Pimples often pop up here if have a history of food allergies and tummy problems like gastric.

Jawline: Unsuitable skincare products, poor make up removal and stress are leading causes of acne here, which gives you a higher risk of bad scarring.

So take note of the points and improve them to prevent pimples, girls ! ;)

2011-09-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

3 months as well, it took him less than that to understand what I really need .
What have I done to.lose such a good friend like it?

2011-09-26T19:50:00.001+08:00

This is the time when I need all the concerns, encouragements and love.
24 days left. I need and I want to do well.

2011-09-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

People do it out of love, but you ?
You do it because you're obliged to .

I hate it. Really.

2011-09-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

Some people ask about your life for the sake of knowing.
Some ask because they wanna gossip.
Some think they should know.
While some wait for you to tell them because they know you will.
And those are the ones who knows what and who you truely are inside.

2011-09-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

Who doesnt want someone who can always be there for you?
Who doesnt want someone who can keep all your secrets?
Who doesnt want someone who can share your sorrows and happiness with?
Who doesnt want someone who can go whereever you want with you?

People come and go.
But we have a choice to choose who we wanna be friends with.
And I'm very happy to have friends that are always there for me .

Although I'm still waiting for the very special friend whom I can say everything and anything to.
Everytime I thought of this, you'd always appear on my mind.
And I never once fail to blame myself for not treasuring you.

Very very late.

2011-09-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

OKAY HI PEOPLE I'M FINALLY BACK .

As in all know, it was my birthday last week !
And I really wanna thank all those who came to surprise me.
Like wow. I've never have so many surprises for my birthday before !
I love you guys so much :)

So it started off on the week, when Caihui came to my house to " hang out"
And then Calvin, Kelly and Marcus appeared at my house to surprise me !
Totally unexpected because there's still like 6 more days !
Marcus prepared dinner too !

The following surprise was uhhh on Friday I think.
My cg came over to my house to surprise me :)

And of course, the final day !
Supposed to meet Le en for lunch at New York New York, but my lower sec clique was there waiting for me !
Was really shocked when I see them there !
So we had lotsa fun and laughter.
It's been so long since I hung out with them.
My cg came over to surprise me too !

So after lunch, few of us head down to Pitstop cafe to have some board games with Cal, Caipeng and Marucs.
Enjoyed myself so much !
Jia Hui and Nigel came down to surprise me !
So blessed right ?! HAHA.

Ya so I really wanted to watch Smurfs because I won't be able to catch it since exams are on the following Monday.
Everyone compromised and catch it with me.
Although the seats were kinda front, but it was an awesome show !
Loved it .

So that's sort of how I spent my birthday !
Time really really do fly !

2011-09-09T14:20:00.003+08:00

This was the reason why I never did .

Because I'm better off alone . Totally.

Hanging on.

2011-09-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

It's been a year .
A year around the world , passing by places where all the memories were created..

As time passes, the images slowly disappeared.
What I have left with is the little pieces of words and promises we've made.
Everything felt the same, but what's different is, I'm on my own now.

2011-09-02T11:49:00.000+08:00

Is it just me, or you're back to your old self?
It's like the same thing happening twice.

Not gonna be your back up plan, anymore .
Because you're not worth the pain.

2011-08-31T19:51:00.000+08:00

It's kinda funny when my friends remember when are my exam dates when I don't remember telling them.
Thank you all for making the effort . :)

Really need you guys to be supporting me .
2 more months ! :)

Lotsa hugs and kisses ~~

2011-08-29T10:11:00.000+08:00

Looking at how close you and Le en is always never fails to let me think of us in the past .
We used to be that close, used to meet up everyday , used to talk about every little things.
And you used to be there for me ..

Look where are we now?
Secretly disliking each other for what we did .
But hey, I'm different, because I still miss the past .
But do you? Probably it's just another piece of puzzle in your life.
Once you fit it in, then you're gonna move on to find another one .

Whatever it is, I've already done my best.
I really did.

" Some friends come for a season, and some stayed with a reason "

2011-08-27T10:31:00.000+08:00

So, my exams practically grounded me .
So deprived of everything now and I can't wait for everything to be over .

Wont be updating as much because my life is about the same thing everyday.

2011-08-19T14:58:00.000+08:00

Courage is when someone look down on you, but you find strength to prove them wrong anyway .

This is my life, I fight for my own future, my happiness.
Here I am battling with all the equations and words.

My future, my happiness , is in my own hands.

Nothing comes from nothing.
And miracles will happen if you try something .

To a very special friend of mine

2011-08-12T20:55:00.001+08:00

( chose this photo because other photos super lag )

To my dearest dearest Leeniez babyzxzz~

Not sure why I suddenly wanna do this .
But just felt that it's time to appreciate you !

Firstly, wanna give you a big big hug to thank you for all the things you've done in my life !

Actually what urged me to write this is I'm really really glad to have a friend like you; a friend who always stands up and speaks for me when I'm being misunderstood instead of joining them .
Am really touched ! Because not everyone would choose to do this because girls always like to jump into conclusions and start gossiping .

Looking back, we've come so far !
5 years and still counting .
And I'm sure that this 5 years isn't coincidence but God's providence !
Thank you leeniezzz. I love you very much !!

Coming to an end .

2011-08-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

2 more months marks the end of this race that we've been fighting for , for 5 years.
All the fun, joy , anger, laughter will turn into memories ..

Glad that we made this trip.
This trip is enough to create memories together. :)

It was awesome but we lost it

2011-08-08T16:14:00.000+08:00

What matters isn't how much you know, but how willing you are to try to understand .
Why should I even bother about it when you don't care at all ?

Thanks for coming into my life.
But I'm gonna leave because I'm not strong enough to take the pain .

And . Thanks for proving me right . :)

2011-07-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

My only source of strength .
Who would be there to comfort me always .

You're the only reason why I kept on going .
Thank you for sending all the angels to protect me .

Got a call from Np for interview on Monday .
Am really worried and nervous for it .
Don't know if I can make it ..

Just hope it would be fine ..
Please pray for me !

2011-07-25T19:23:00.000+08:00

School gonna end at 5 everyday from today onwards ..
Not sure if I should be happy about it or not .

So it started today .
Wasn't looking forward to it at first, but it turns out to be fine .
Hopefully it'd be worth it .

Have been shopping at Gmarket and I'd say it's super duper awesome !
Got surprised by the free gifts !
Though its just small little ones, but enough to make my day .
So people, start shopping at Gmarket !

Look at the cute packaging of the mask they sent me !!

2011-07-21T18:42:00.003+08:00

Call yourself a man ?
Effing get a job and stop blaming others.

Hate doing this but very pissed off !!

~~Sorry hor .~~
~~I'm no longer the 3 year old girl who depend on you.~~
~~Don't act like as if you've contribute a lot.~~
~~And please .~~
~~Want say bad things about me then speak in chinese la .~~
~~Purposely speak in dialect ?~~
~~Too bad I can understand uh .~~
~~You and your stupid pride .~~
~~So great then don't look for me when in need la .~~
~~Stupid shit .~~

2011-07-20T18:58:00.000+08:00

The end of the world, it seems.
But I'm not gonna fall .

2011-07-18T18:03:00.000+08:00

Thank you for caring :):):)

2011-07-17T19:14:00.002+08:00

It may be tough now .
But I know I can overcome it .
For joy comes after all trials .

2011-07-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Even the strongest house have pillars as a support .
What makes you think I don't need one ?

2011-07-13T11:16:00.000+08:00

I will always remember you as the guy who bought fisherman's friend and tissue when I had flu.
The guy who loved me with all my imperfections. :)

2011-07-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

What I need the most now .
Pressing on .

Your love is for me.

2011-07-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

Speak into this mountain to move into this ocean.
With your authority given to me.
No matter what happens, here I am standing on the hope of Your word , promises to me.

Let it fall.

2011-07-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

So recently I started going for jogs at night again .
What's different is I went alone instead of going with my brother.
The cooling and quiet park at night, with the company of my music, is the peace I will never experience in the day.

Many things have been crashing on me recently.
Everything seems to go wrong.
Till I felt so helpless and I don't know what to do..

As I was jogging, something cool came across my mind. And I taught of writing this down .
Is that life is just like jogging.
No matter how tired you are, no matter how your mind ask you to stop running.
You.keep.on.keeping,on.
Because YOU will reach your destination eventually.

No matter how hard your life can be now.
No matter how tired you are.
No matter how much you felt like giving up.
Keep.on.keeping.on.
Because the rain will stop.
Because your life won't be stormy forever.
Because they is always sunshine after the rain .

2011-07-02T19:35:00.000+08:00

Oh how many times have I broken your heart.
But still you forgive if only I ask.

Dear God, please expand my capacity of love.
To love people who are unlovable.

God is good

2011-06-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

Was talking to my friend a few days ago and I was really amazed by the works of God in my life.
Although there were times I don't understand why, but He will defnitely reveal His answers in one form or another.
Am really touched by the love of God in my life.
Things removing the wrong friends and replacing the right ones for me .
Or placing me in a better enviroment.
All these never never fails to amazed me and keeps me in wonder what what you're gonna do next !
But whatever it is , I'm gonna stay committed !

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2011-06-23T12:33:00.000+08:00

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2011-06-19T23:01:00.016+08:00

Had a look at you, you seemed so much older.
When I walk behind you, you seemed so much weaker..
So this is my daddy who've brought countless of heartaches and problems to this family.
The daddy who've scolded me without reasons but love me still.
The daddy who've loved me since young.
The daddy who'd fetch me home even he's worned out.
The daddy who'd call and ask if I've eaten my dinner.
The daddy who'd bring me out to eat if I'm hungry at night .

No idea why every time I talk about my daddy, there's always this sourish kind of feeling I'd feel.
It's like a love-hate relationship I have with him.

Happy Fathers' Day to all ! :)

2011-06-19T20:07:00.012+08:00

失去了曾经的拥有在你离开以后
带走了笑容只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么
没有你得夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前
能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

Never thought I was the one.

2011-06-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

随着时间慢慢的过去，对你记忆慢慢地减少。
但对你的思念却一直增加。。

I'm sorry for letting you down.

Amazed.

2011-06-13T16:18:00.000+08:00

I'm blown away, by your power to change this life once lost, and plant it in you.
And who would know that I was once on a road so far away from you.
All I know is that I live my life to show the world your amazing love.

2011-06-12T17:32:00.000+08:00

Done with your lies
Baby now my tear's dry
You can see my brown eyes

Just a word.

2011-06-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

Never thought I would actually see you again.
But why. Why am I the one hiding from you .
Why . Such a big reaction when I see you.
It's been a year .
365 days . But I still remember it all .
Where's my rainbow you said you would paint me .
Where's my castle you said you will build.
Where's my knight when I needed someone to protect me.
Where's the one who always treated me as a princess.

This.is.how.important.you.are.to.me.

2011-06-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

Empty promises and brokened dreams

2011-05-27T22:58:00.012+08:00

One year ago, on this day , you made a promise to be there for me forever .
One year later, you're nowhere to be found.

Every now and then, I would find myself missing how you would always be there for me when I needed someone.
I would find myself missing how you would know what I'm thinking even without telling you anything.

I would find myself being so amazed and wonder how you ever find out what I'm thinking.
I would find myself thinking, how great would it be if you were still there like last time.
So I won't feel so weak when I'm left with difficult circumstances because you've always been my strength .

What ever it is, I still wish the best for you .
And I wanna thank you for being there for me :)

Your choice.

2011-05-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

Enough of feeling hurt .
Enough of getting bothered by it .
Because you're not worth it .
Because you're not worth me hanging on.
Because you're not worth my love .
Because you didn't treasure me like how I did.
So I gonna give you up.
So I not gonna hold on anymore .
One day you will realize, I'm no longer there anymore.
Maybe.. I was never there.
Or maybe .. You've never wanted me in your life .

2011-05-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

Get over it, Stella .

2011-05-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday papa !

Many years have past , many heartaches brought .
But I love you still :)

Right here still.

2011-05-14T12:39:00.000+08:00

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now.

Because you're someone important in my life ..

Excusions

2011-05-13T18:17:00.000+08:00

The day when we were all excited to go Science centre till ...

Little man on the bus.

Army food .

The apple on my bag .

Till .. We realized it wasn't Science centre, but some Army museum .
Didn't really enjoy it as the weather was really hot !!
And girls don't even need to go army.
Gained some knowledge though .

2011-05-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

There's a girl who sits under the bleachers just another day eating alone.
And though she smiles, there is something just hiding, and she can't find a way to relate.
She just goes unnoticed as the crowd passes by.
And she'll pretend to be busy when inside she just wants to cry.
And she'll say...

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

The beginning, in the first weeks of class, she did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldn't seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they laughed and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked, the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little hard and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her her name

Then one day just the same as the last
Just a day spent counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

2011-05-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

i hope this will not end up like any other .

Till eternity.

2011-05-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers !

Finally understood the reason for 世上只有妈妈好。

Even though there were a lot of times I disagree with you.
But you still love me without fail.
Even though some times I showed you attitude, you still love me with out fail.
Even at times I'm really difficult to deal with, you still love me the same.

This 17 years of life isn't perfect, but you have made the picture complete .
You've been working so hard to support this family; giving up the best for us .
Thank you for showering your love for me all the while.

I love you, forever and always.

Wish I'd never grow up

2011-05-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

Time flies.

Because you loved me.

2011-05-03T17:25:00.002+08:00

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

2011-05-01T23:36:00.001+08:00

It used to be so perfect.
What happened?

2011-04-28T16:54:00.000+08:00

#31 Baking is my passion
#32 I love to cook.
#33 I went for baking classes before.
#34 I'm more of introvert than loud.
#35 My aunt used to cut my hair when I was one.
#36 I never had long hair until primary 3.
#37 I have crooked teeth because I was scared of pain last time.
#38 I'm afraid of dogs.
#39 I'm not that scared of insects if they didn't disturb me.
#40 I prefer watermelon over honeydew.

Omg?

2011-04-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

WTS

2011-04-24T00:16:00.002+08:00

The secret of being loved is being unselfish; the secret of being lovely is being unselfish.

Happy Easter :)

2011-04-23T16:45:00.002+08:00

–noun

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection,
as for a parent, child, or friend.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person;sweetheart.

Love, it can be so perfect when you and your other half are crazily in love with each other.
But what if you and your other half falls apart and the love is no longer there?
What if your loved one decided to leave you for good?
What if your loved one moved on to another person?

Who's gonna be there for you forever?

Forever was out of my life since don't know how long ago until I met Him.
Some one who love me so much that He died for me. ♥

2011-04-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

#11 I love cheese !
#12 I used to be really fat.
#13 I cannot lie.
#14 I love to laugh.
#15 I cannot stand tiredness.
#16 I think I'm kinda stubborn.
#17 I prefer doing things my way.
#18 I don't like people to scold me.
#19 The number 1 thing that will make me cry is family.
#20 I love hugs.
#21 I prefer Watermelon to Honeydew.
#22 I love fruit juice.
#23 I like to eat corn flakes.
#24 I like sour stuff.
#25 I like chocolates.
#26 I like to receive words of affirmation.
#27 I like going places with cool breeze and nice scenery.
#28 I like to wear watch.
#29 I can survive without make up
#30 I don't like to repeat my words.

2011-04-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

I gotta be strong now.

Janet's 17th !

2011-04-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

Janet's 17th at Pasir ris park !
Went over to Bishan at around 1 to help out with the food we needed then cabbed down to Pasir ris .
Reached there kinda early and started bbq-ing !

The ones who were there early !

Foood ~

Playing around with marshmallows.

Tau pok !

Birthday song at around 9 !

Trying to take out all the candles with mouth.

That's about all !
The rest at FB !

Baking session at Twinkle's

2011-04-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

Went to Twinkle's house to bake last Sat with Siewhwee, Caiyu and of course Twinkle !
Nua-ed at her house all the way till evening.
Really love the time spent there !
Shows that even though we seldom talk/meet up, we still have this little string attached to each other :)

Apple crumble ! Taste damn awesome !

Okay Siew hwee didn't wanna waste resources.
So Twinkle sewed a corset for Siewhwee !

That's about it .
The rest on FB !

2011-04-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

Can't stand pimples?

Use Oxy !

It is you

2011-04-10T15:51:00.000+08:00

It is your love
It is your mercy
New every morning, unfailing .

2011-04-09T10:41:00.000+08:00

#4 I don't really like people to ask me questions.
#5 I often have deep thoughts.
#6 I don't have a good relationship with my family.
#7 I'm don't cry over trivial matter.
#8 I'm not that girly kind of girl.
#9 I'm a very light sleeper.
#10 I will feel very guilty if I've done the wrong thing.

Doing well

2011-04-06T19:26:00.003+08:00

Okay I know I haven't been posting properly.
Nah my super cute companion.

Here's a brief update about my .. boring? life.

Okay it's April now.
About 200 days more left to another whole new level.
Okay I know it's kinda early to talk about this.
But really can't wait for it to be over.
Would probably have lesser pimples.

Actually this year is about the same as any other year for me.
Just that more stress I guess.
One thing I can really say is I think I'm still not used to the body clock and tiredness everything.
Especially when service is on Sunday.
So I'm left with only Saturday to sleep.
Fyi, I'm a really light sleeper.
So the maximum I can sleep is until 10?
If I can later than that I would have problems sleeping in the night.
So yea because of that, I fell sick for the 3rd time of the year a few days ago.
But I recovered pretty fast, not fully well now yet though.

Okay that's about it.
Till then ;)

Remember when.

2011-04-05T18:31:00.009+08:00

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times.
I told you everything.
You know my feelings.
It never crossed my mind that there would be a time for us to say goodbye.
What a big surprise
But I'm not lost, I'm not gone, I haven't forgot
These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around.
These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend, and I'm not coming back around again.
Now I'm aloneWhere do I begin?
I cried a little bit
You dried a little bit
Please say there's no regrets
And say you won't forget

2011-04-03T18:14:00.001+08:00

我懂后来你不是不坚持爱情本来就没万无一失.

2011-04-02T18:09:00.000+08:00

#3 I will have a hard time sleeping if I ate panadol before bed.

2011-04-01T17:41:00.001+08:00

#2 I always cut my fringe on my own.

2011-03-31T16:07:00.003+08:00

#1 . I'm always seen happy because I chose to have happy thoughts :)

Bye Winter !

2011-03-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

Finally let this huge stone out from my heart after such a long time.
Can't believe it actually gonna take over my whole emotions.
Really glad that it's over now and I think my Winter season is over !

Got nothing for me to feel upset about already .
Really PTL for the strength to get over all the obstacles :)

Till then !

Love?

2011-03-28T18:01:00.000+08:00

Should I be happy that it's over , or should I be sad that it's over?
It's kinda weird that I'm actually feeling this way when I already know what's the ending gonna be.

Ah well.. Guess you're the first one that caused such an impact.

I don't think God is unfair,

2011-03-27T17:31:00.001+08:00

Trying my best to catch up with time.

OHMYGAWD IT'S SUNDAY ALREADY.

So many things have happened this year.
Am really glad that through all these, I'm able to grow more mature and sensible.

So thankful for where I am and what I am doing now.

Fill me up.

2011-03-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

Yet another trial we're gonna face.
This time round, it's a different situation..
Let this be a test , for the love we shared .
I'm gonna try my best. And I really pray with all my heart that you would to ..
Because I don't wanna walk pass you one day feeling really empty..