I've never lose someone close to me before.
At least not at the age when I'm more aware of things.

I lost my grandmother when I was really really young I think when I was primary 1/2 so it wasn't very bad.
Also she only visits my family once a year or so.

A few days ago, my dad received a call from his family that his dad isn't gonna make it any longer and he wishes to see my dad for the last time.
My dad couldn't though, due to some issues.
So he asked my brother to go on behalf of him.
Initially my mother asked me to go down together with her, I didn't want to because I'm having attachment and I don't want to miss it.
The past few days dad have been pretty down and I think it's the first time I've seen him like that.
As a children, I think everyone would wish to be there during the last moments. Furthermore, according to my aunt, grandpa really wanted to see him.

 I can't imagine how painful it is to witness your parent/loved on passed on.

Quite lost now :'(