Many things happened last week and I don't know where to start from.

But one thing that brought comfort to me was God was always there to comfort me.
Was telling God that as much as He wants me tell Him that I love him, I want Him to tell me too.
Sounds so silly right.
Haha but right after that, Pastor prophesied and repeatedly said I love you and I'm always there to comfort you.
How comforting :')

Also lots of love to the ones who spammed me so much love when I was so overwhelmed with the things.
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I remember the words that people said.
But some times I choose to not put it in heart cause I know they don't mean it.

Spent my whole of Saturday in Malaysia; somewhere so foreign yet familiar.

My heart goes all out to my two nephews..

Their father left their family and mother remarried.

What's worst is she is pregnant with the stepdad's children..

Throughout the whole journey, the mother didn't really bother much about her children already.

What would happen when the new born is out ... :(

Also, how would the male's family treat the children ..

They are still so young yet they have to go through so much already.

Wish I can do something for them ..

In a state of mind that couldn't believe it's 3rd week of 2013 already.

Although the crazy assignments period are over, but I have been feeling so moody and tired.

So many things are running through my mind and it's so overwhelming.

I'm guessing it's the hormones.

On the side note, weekends are here soon !
But I won't have a proper time to rest because I've got things to do.

Miss those me times, the times when I just lie on the sofa and switch channels every 5 minutes and fall asleep the next 30 minutes (repeat cycle until someone is back)
And I miss those times when my request to places were usually granted.
Thinking back, I am such a fortunate girl with people who are always looking out for me; always loving me so much.
Of course like any other, I didn't treasure them. But don't get me wrong.
I love every single one of them who are part of my life journey.

And I know Papa is filling up the emptiness with His love every single day.

" you will feel happier when you give thanks "

Started thanking God everyday on the 1st of Jan.
Something new that I'm doing this year!
And I realized as I pen down the things that made my day, I started to feel happier and more refreshed.
Despite the busy schedule everyday.
Some times I get amused by how chirpy I still feel even after a long day.

So start giving thanks !

People always wonder why bad things happen to them.
Even I, too.

But as time passes, I started believing that all things happened for a reason, and God is already there waiting for you.
And I realized, that all the obstacles that I've overcome with God, not only I became stronger, but I've become the living testimony on earth, and it is actually more encouraging to one who is going through that same things I've gone through.

However, people don't take the initiative to encourage someone, but I believe and I know that EVERYONE can make a difference, if you can then why not ?

Captivating

Finally finished reading the book ' Captivating ' by John and Stasi Eldredge.
I have no idea why I took so long to finish the book.
Probably God already planned the different chapters for different season so I would be blessed.
And indeed !
Because I started reading the second time and some of the chapters that awed me on the first time didn't!
Quite interesting hur.

The biggest thing I've learnt from the book is to view things differently; in God's view.
And somehow I started to thank God more for the things I have, I started to search for Him more.
Each time I did, I always feel so comforted in the midst of all the things I've been juggling.
Also, I had so much revelation that made me feel so closed to God.

" The desire that you're having now, is the future that God has planned for you"
I used to think my desire and passion are kinda impossible and I have been searching for a vision.
Until I read this, it definitely caught my attention and it lit up my heart because I have been having the desire on my passion. It kinda died off because it seemed so far away now.
But now, I'm spurred and working towards it now.

Thank you God, for being so good to me.

I think school has a contribution to my emotions. So out of control.

The feeling is like I'm left alone in the wild knowing that there would be light at the end of the darkness.

2nd day of 2013.
I can't help and can't stop thinking of what happened in 2012; all the events that has happened, the things that holds a special place in my heart.

I am thankful for every single thing that has happened because it is when I started to learn how to stand up not on my own, but with the help of God.
In the year 2012, I have definitely fell hard enough to learn to rely on God, not because the earthly people weren't there. But at the end of the day, God knows best.
And I got my braces!! Big deal? Very. Because it wasn't something I've expected to have!
Hahaha and it kinda helped me to smile more and widely.

I guess I'm gonna be mainstream and do a new year resolution.
I don't think I ever done that before and I kinda wish I did. Haha but then again I have so much to wish for.
Maybe the ultimate one is for everyone to be happy.

I hate myself for being affected so easily by the words people said to me.
But at the same time, I admire myself for being able to put the words behind and be happy again.

Hahaha. On the side note, I think I got the indecisive genes from my mum.

Often, words come out from one's mouth before it got processed in their brain ...

And often, people are so quick to blame instead of thinking the reason why.

Sometimes. Just sometimes, I wonder what do the ants classify us humans under.
What's on their mind when we press one of the ant with our finger.
Are we giants? Monsters? Alien?
Interesting huh.